T’was a crappy cakey with no pineapple, but the ice cream was okay.
Being out in the suck with bandwidth being at a premium (there is only one internet connection for a whole barracks worth of sailors) I have more than enough time to ponder about random things. I just marked my 25th Birthday not too long ago, thousands of miles from home, with a crappy Army issue cakey with no candle, but least the ice cream was good. At 25 my life turned out alright, I have yet to be struck with dire poverty and having enlisted back in 2004 and having extended unwittingly to go on deployment I lucked out since I hear that Uncle Sam has cut back on recruitment. If nothing else I do enjoy being gainfully employed even if out here the locals have banned 4chan, danbooru, and moeimouto. At any rate I thought back on what anime characters that I looked up to and probably still do. I was also supposed to do a blog birthday post since I started back in April of 2007, so might as well do a little reflecting on life. To this end I came up with a couple heroes but for the sake of keeping this short I’ll focus on two.
Here’s your birthday cake, Crusader. -EO
As a young lad I grew up at time when Evangelion was “teh shit” and decided to watch it along with everyone else at the time. It was pretty much a gospel of wangst, lose, family hating, cowardice, and FAIL. Here was a a character known forever more as Shinji Ikari whose name has long been a byword for cowardice. Suffice to say unlike many of my peers at the time I felt disgusted, but as luck would have it G Gundam was not too far off and there I found one paragon of manliness and a true hero that still shines brightly throughout /m/, Kyoji/Schwartz Bruder. Growing up I wanted to be like Schwartz, he may not have been the best Mobile Fighter, nor did he get all the glory but he was the one that helped things along, the Aniki of Anikis that helped his little brother to greatness. I went to High School with a reputation for academic excellence that was the best in the entire school district, and it was there that I found out the hard way that I was not the smartest and made me painfully aware of my own shortcomings. Thus I found a hero to look up to that was not the best of the best, but was capable and a decent person. Schwartz did not even have a shuffle crest nor was he a member of the School of the Undefeated of the East, but what he lacked in title he more than made up with determination and prowess. Even after losing his real body he made sure to sow the seeds for the Dark Gundam’s downfall, even if it meant dooming himself and forcing Domon to do the deed. He did not lament his situation or the injustice that was done to his family, he set aside his own problems for the purpose of ending a threat that was bigger than him. With tragic pasts being a dime a dozen then as it is now, it was inspiring to see a character not only set aside his own problems but continue looking out for his younger brother because he was the only one who could that had any idea of the trying times to come.
Schwartz even helped Domon patch things up with Rain and helped True Love find a way. As a long time fan of shoujo I thought that was a worthy cause since it was rather rare for a manly man to do such a thing, and all the more noble because Schwartz never did find true love on his own. It was unselfish and inspired me to spread the gospel of True Love up to and beyond this day. Such a thing is still rather rare since almost every loser animu male is out to get the girl, but Schwartz helped some one else get the girl. Other than his last successful forlorn hope, Schwartz was never bested in a match until he went up against the Power of Rain and Domon’s Love, certainly even now that is how I want to lose. If I had to lose to something I would certainly prefer it to be True Love more than anything else. What really struck a chord with me though was even if Schwartz failed to vanquish the Dark Gundam he didn’t give up right up until THE END when Domon unleashed hist Ultimate Technique, he didn’t die in vain because he bought time for Domon to finish the fight. I have always admired that resolve to never give up, to never despair, and to continue a BIG FIGHT even if you will not be the one to claim victory.
Ever since watching G Gundam and Schwartz’s deeds I have aspired to be good at what I do, I might never be the best but like Schwartz I will always give it my best and will endeavor to never despair or give up the fight. I spent the better part of my time as an aniki leaving my little brother alone, the way our mom raised us whether she intended to or not caused nothing but rivalry and mutual loathing. However since then I have tried to be a better brother. These days we get along fine and I did help give my mom a nudge on his behalf when he became a father sooner than he anticipated. Before I went out to the suck I spent a lot of time taking care of my niece, and I am glad that I was able to help the rest of my family accept and love her as much as I do even if the circumstances were less than ideal. Given my current situation, the legcy of Schwartz has gained new meaning for me; I may not be the the hero with a chest full of medals, I might not even see the end of the this BIG FIGHT, but I will give it my best, I will give it my all, and despite the suck I will embrace it in the hope that one day a group of heroes will manage to use SEKIHA LOVE LOVE TENKYOKEN to win it.
While much lamenting and ruing of Patrick Colassour has occurred since AEU no Ace made his humiliating debut, I will always remember the Immortal Colassour for being a hero in love because he wasn’t the best pilot, but by Zeus he was the luckiest when those around him fell. Patrick even lucked out compared to Bushido Bob who just dragged Graham’s reputation through the mud. I would like to have Patrick’s attitude when it comes to love, he cared little for the thoughts of others and doggedly continued courting his beloved despite the lack of reciprocation. There’s something to be admired in that sort of determination and even if his detractors call him a pest and stupid, Patrick got BEST END when guys like Billy were left to console themselves with photoshopped pictures. If I ever meet a woman that would make me more passionate about her than my job I would hope to have Patrick’s brand of confidence and determination. Unlike the typical loser harem animu male Patrick had to instigate the courtship rather than have the lame fantasy scenario where women threw themselves upon the lap of the loser. I say this because I was recently made painfully aware of my own lack of confidence when it came to women. The problem wasn’t going on the first blind date but never managing the second, it took a stereotypical guys night out before coming out to the suck that made me painfully aware of my problem.
A hero of love, worthy of praise and respect.
She was a rather polite lass, more polite than I had expected and it was a conversation that I did not really expect. It was a statement about how my nervousness was plain as day to the fairer sex and that has haunted me even now and despite the Irish Car Bombs and pints of Guinness the memory of it remains. Having no booze out in the suck I can’t try and drown that memory either. I can do plenty that most sane people would never attempt, I can rappel off a 100 foot drop, I can climb a rickety telescopic ladder two stories up with an M-16 at the ready, I can be the lead guy to clear a room, I can handle dead animals, I can treat bones that have popped out of a guy’s skin, I can jump off a high dive despite my own mild acrophobia and hydrophobia, and I can even go out into the suck, but nothing has ever shattered my perception of my own courage quite the way she did. The difference was that when it came to women I did not have anything to ease my fear, at least with most of what I do I can rely on my training, body armor, and have a weapon on hand to deal with nasty surprises, not so with dating I guess. Even though I could keep my fear in check I guess my nervousness was just all to plain to see which explains a lot. Still bless her heart it was some soul crushing that I needed even if I wasn’t looking for it. One day I hope to have Patrick’s brand of confidence, and luck.
Some pain may be required.
But in the end True Love can overcome all!
So who’s your animu hero and how did they inspire you?