Boku no Hatsukoi o Kimi ni Sasagu Review – I cried.


Life is a fragile thing. We often procrastinate and think that something that can be done today can be done tomorrow. Time, to most of us, is an object that is hardly precious since we have so much time that we can afford to lose part of it. However, when time is the one who will govern your life, how do you live that life?

There is a girl you love a lot. You have loved her ever since you know about love, and wishes for her to stay with you forever. If you know you are going to live up to 20 years old, what would you do? That is the question asked by Takuma, a boy with a heart failure that means that he might not survive beyond twenty summers. He loves Mayu, a childhood lover, but he knows he cannot give her eternal happiness. The happiness he can give to any girl only lasts one-fifth of a century. What will you do if you are him?

This is Boku no Hatsukoi o Kimi ni Sasagu, or in English “I’ll Give You My First Love.”

The two main characters


Takuma is a outwardly energetic boy that does not allow the pain in his heart (pun intended) to surface. He hops in and out of a hospital due to his heart condition, but he never wavers in confidence that he will be cured. He always smiles to everyone, despite the fact that he knew that his biological clock will cease to exist faster than anyone that surrounds him. Nonetheless, he bears the pain alone, not daring to love anyone. No one wishes to let the person they love to see them die, and leave them with plain loneliness. Mayu’s father is one of the doctors that is caring for him, and knows his true condition.

Mayu is his childhood friend that loves him dearly as well. She always protects him, just as he will always protect her all the time. Despite visiting him often in the hospital, she never knows about his condition (until a further date in the manga) that he will die before the age of 20. Her father is a specialist in heart dysfunctional issues, and is hiding the truth from her.



It has been a while since I cried while reading a manga. For some reason, anime tends to evoke more feelings in me due to the animation that provides more tangible expressions and the ambiance that has to be imagined in a manga. I lack creativity for imagining and absorbing the tension between the characters through visual dialogue of a piece of paper. Nonetheless, the extremely realistic and powerful rendition of these extremely likable characters just makes you wonder why they have to endure this cruel twisted hand of fate.

However, it is hardly surprising that this manga series is such a tearjerker. The mangaka is Kotomi Aoki, who is famous for her work in Boku wa Imōto ni Koi o Suru. Some of the characters in her previous work also appears in this series, as the two main characters here are in fact side characters then. I like her previous work as well, and I do not exactly like incest themes since I find them generally disgusting.

Due to the fact that I do not want to reveal any spoilers, I will not mention too much of the plot. Nonetheless, I have read up to the second last volume of this series, and I really find that despite some of the rather melodramatic plot themes, the combination of humor and drama is very intrinsic. It has been a very long while since I read such a beautiful drama/romance manga, and I urge you to pick it up as well.

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  1. Posted July 25, 2008 at 6:59 am | Permalink

    Dammit (in a good way). enticing stuff ^^

  2. Posted July 25, 2008 at 8:50 am | Permalink

    Ack! you beat me to a Boku no Hatsukoi review Impz! I read the last chapter of this one recently, and all I can say is… I’m happy. and I’m crying too. I’m still waiting for the last volume to be released so I can go weep with joy and sadness and whatnot, and tell the whole world about it. Aoki Kotomi really outdid herself with this one ^-^

  3. Posted July 25, 2008 at 11:02 am | Permalink

    @RyanA: It is. The fact that I do not want to give spoilers means that I cannot give you the full extent of the greatness.

    @Usajigen: You should be able to do a much better review than me in terms of manga. I am rather uncomfortable when it comes to blogging about manga, but it’s just too hard not to recommend to anyone who wants a good manga to read. Now, I am going to my local Kino to buy the books when I withdraw some money.

  4. Posted July 25, 2008 at 1:16 pm | Permalink

    Ahh I’ll have to agree with you on this one, I almost didn’t want to continue reading because its just so heartbreaking at times.

  5. Posted July 25, 2008 at 2:04 pm | Permalink

    Aww… man I try to avoid these because I don’t like knowing that sad things are going to happen. I’d rather be surprised and say “NOOOOOO!” when they do happen, not know of it ahead of time…
    but maybe I’ll give this one a try… it’s sounds so sweet but sad…

  6. Posted July 25, 2008 at 5:20 pm | Permalink

    I’m happy you brought this manga up, it’s one of my favorites. It’s like a WAY better version of A Walk to Remember. < That was cheesy, imo, but this one – god, it seems so realistic, and it’s a tearjerker.

    But I love how Kotomi Aoki makes me feel so torn over just wanting to shake Takuma and tell him to give in, but then realizing what reasons he has. Pardon the cheesiness of my words, but I can’t think of a better way to phrase it.

  7. Posted July 25, 2008 at 10:29 pm | Permalink

    @D.J: Ya, it was quite emo at the middle parts of the manga. I broke out into tears during one of those scenes and it is rather awkward because my parents were sitting outside at the living room. Had to close my room =3

    @Twilight: It is rather bittersweet, exactly as you describe. However, unlike the many manga that forces the plot to be melodramatic, the story felt normal and realistic. It is almost like it’s too painful to endure because it feels so much like it will happen to anyone.

    @Hoshi: I never watched A walk to remember since I wasn’t into movies much then. Nonetheless, it’s really hard for Takumi to give in because it is a battle with the heart and mind. The heart tells him to follow with his feelings that are intense and loving, while his mind tells him not to be involved with Mayu. It’s really a painful struggle within oneself.

    He does not want to hurt, but hurts more. He does not intend to hurt Mayu, but hurts her more by hurting himself. Yet, if he does not hurt, he will hurt her longer. It’s so sad ._.

  8. sl33py
    Posted July 26, 2008 at 11:45 am | Permalink

    Impz, you effing rock. I love Aoki Kotomi. I seriously do. Even though I’ve only read Boku wo Imouto Koi Suru and this manga by her, I’ve cried on them far more than I’ve ever cried, I think. lol
    Her manga’s really bittersweet, it brings you out of this world, only to crush you back down with hammer of reality. And so far, her manga isn’t like any other silly shoujo manga out there. It’s the. real. angst. Plus there aren’t alot of smut or anything in this manga, I’m really loving it.

    P.S. I’m on Chapter 56 and I’m stuck. GAH, THAT’S ONLY TWO CHAPTERS AWAY FROM THE END! ;_; Don’t you hate it when that happens >_<

  9. ShadowCat
    Posted August 7, 2008 at 8:50 am | Permalink

    Impz ,you cried ? This manga has to be something (like ‘Socrate’s love-Sekai no Chushin de Ai wo Sakebu , another teardroper)…not that I need this kind of things right now , I’m crying 1/2 of my day anyway.I’ll start reading it right away :D.
    “He does not want to hurt, but hurts more. He does not intend to hurt Mayu, but hurts her more by hurting himself. Yet, if he does not hurt, he will hurt her longer. It’s so sad ._.”
    It is even sader when two people love each other but they stay away to awoid pain and sadness.In the moment of deparitng (death) the sick one regrets his actions and wishes for another chance while the one that stays alive would give anything to turn back time and be by his side.That’s how things are in reality (I’ve been trough this) so I’m curious about the ending in the manga.It better be a bittersweet one couse I can’t take to much drama at this moment.

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