This is NOT a quit entry or I will blog less entry. Before anyone thinks that this is a quit post by me, I assure you not. It’s an amusing thought whenever people read a title such as this, they immediately associate it with quit threats. Crusader immediately gave me a private message on Yahoo Messenger stating that I am “not allowed to quit” before he does. I guess I will be an eternal slave to the blog.
This entry is a challenge to myself and all the bloggers out there who are unhappy with the end result of your entries. This is a reflection to all who are thinking about whether their writing is good enough to attract others to comment. This is a rant about how to give enjoyment to our beloved readers and commentators. This is in essence an entry that talks about writers and the dynamic relationship of bloggers with readers.
This is an entry about you and mainly me.
This entry came about because I was very unhappy with my writing, both in the blog and also in my academic writing. In the blog, I didn’t feel that my heart was completely into the writing of the entry. When I was reading my Koihime Episode 9 entry, I feel that it could be been much better. The jokes were not enough to stimulate laughter. It didn’t feel like I am creating more discussion or interest to readers. It was depressing. It was annoying and most of all, it was simply bad. Perhaps, I have a huge expectation of how I should be writing, and it just didn’t feel like I have hit the right spot recently.
As a writer, I feel that I have not done my best to convey my thoughts, my anger, my happiness and my heart into the words I wrote. It just feels empty when you know that you can do much better but somehow misses the mark. For some of you, it might not matter but I always wish to bring entertainment and spark some discussion about anything in any entry I write. Most of you consider anime to be entertainment, and blogging about it should entertain you. If not, I will merely be blogging to a wall of text, and that is NOT FUN. I am sure many of the new anime bloggers will understand how it feels to be “ignored.”
It is the same with my academic writing. I seldom talk about my real life events, because My professor has said in no certain terms that my writing is bad, and he feels somewhat embarrassed to associate my writing with him. Despite my rather depressed outlook on writing, I know that writing as a skill is something that takes time to nurture, and “my progress is very slow.”
I am unhappy with my writing, but that does not mean I do not want to write. I want to, yet I do not want to simply write some verbal rubbish. This is NOT WRITER’S BLOCK by the way. If you have faced it, how do you solve it? When you are repeatedly told that your writing is terrible, and you are not good enough compared to others (and your livelihood is based on it), how do you handle it? This is a question I am still asking myself, and I will continue to write, improve and write more to find the solution to this.